Why I do what I do.

"Why do we do what we do?" The last few months especially Ive had to ask myself this very question. I'm the kind of person who tries to make everyone around me happy. For a long time now I have tried to be there for everyone i can be. I do it so i don't have to feel alone. I do it so i can try and make a difference. For so long Ive wanted to be a hero of some sorts. But of course I'm no Batman or Captain America. But recently i had a break down and realized how unhappy Ive been with my life and stuff that is going on in it. I have made sure the people around me are happy. Whether its family or friends i try to make sure everyone is happy. I like to see people happy. The thing is just about everyone in my life have that one special person to help them when they're down. But I don't. At the end of the day when everything is said and done I go home and have to deal with everything in my life by myself. I help everyone else but When i do it im lonely. I help everyone around me so for a split second I can feel some happiness. To bring a smile to someones face brightens my day for a moment.